We were winter.

i.
we fell in love in the winter,
and it only makes sense that it's dying now.
we were the snow and the heat of spring is killing us,
bringing blossoms of new romance.
it's just...i fell for her in the course of a night,
and i figured that 'hey, she's across the nation.
she can't hurt me'.
well i was fucking wrong, 
and you know what?
she did it unintentionally.

ii.
now i can't blame her, okay?
i mean i come with a shit ton of baggage,
and i am an ocean of problems.
oh, and i didn't let her know that i cared so much.
so basically curiosity killed the cat,
because i was dying to know.
come on cass, what are we?
were we ever anything?
did i do something wrong?
and i was expecting it to hurt...
just not like this.

iii.
i just...wonder if she knows that;
she was my fucking sky,
the reason the sun rose and fell,
the reason to breathe.
she was the summer in the eternal winters of my mind,
she was...she was....she IS.
she is my fucking sky,
the reason the sun rises and falls,
my candle in the night,
burning bright.
and it's not fair.
it's not her fault.
but it hurts.

iv.
"I miss you so much."
right words, wrong girl.

v.
oh, and Cass?
try your hardest to survive,
because you deserve it.
and i do love you. i do. i do. i do. i do.